my hp is failing me. my browser keeps hanging. i wonder why. wanted to blog so many times this week, yet im unable to. like just now, when i was sitting by the sea, on the beach, emo-ing and watching the waves splash onto the shore.

today's been long. well, i dun recall sleeping much. cos i didnt. airport is freaking cold. once again, the terrain sleeper(gerald tay) proved that he IS worthy of the title. hope those infantry people can do a good job there in brunei! i can see them wearing the JCC badges alrdy. jiayou delta! oh, and wing comd is still that inspiring. though he didnt say much, but he rmb me! so glad =D

today was really poorly planned. i went from north to east to north and back to east. travel so much. really shouldve just stayed home and not gone for the choir thing at ecp. i know i didnt want to cycle. int he end, i think i go there to emo and train up for route marches. walked so far. seen so many stuff. and ecp is so crowded today! wonder if it's because it's national day, or are all saturdays so crowded? really want to go back one day to run. it's a pretty nice place to run.

and i guess, part of my moodiness is because what i predicted seems to be coming true. i hope im not jealous or what. i'd prefer to think that im afraid. afraid of her falling in and i unable to help. afraid of losing my friend. like, my only friend. lol. okay lah my only friend, u can guess my prediction le right? pls tell me ur mind is indeed stronger.

laptop's running low on batt, and i dunwan to blog anymore. been up for the past 48hours le think my body's crying out for me to lie down and sleep. gdnight.

how i wish this is all a dream, and i will wake up and nothing's changed. but, i know it's real. i've changed. so have you, you and many other you-s. oh wells..people change and i no longer feel that i know myself anymore. even people i hold dear. life sucks. yeah.