Asthma is never fun. Neither is 2 attacks in 3days. I've barely recovered from the first and then here comes the second. arghh.

My doc told me my asthma may be stress-induced. And I go around telling people that. But no one seems to be able to establish the link between stress and asthma. I can't too, initially. When I had my first attack on the fateful sunday before O lvl prelims, I thought maybe it's due to the clams that i ate and had food poisoning. A few more visits to the doc rejected that 'hypothesis' of mine. Then the doc concluded that it may be due to the upcoming MAJOR exam(which I had 100% confident in). How ironic. Stressed at sth that I'm confident in. Perhaps not confident enough? Hohoho.

But there's one very strange thing about my asthma attacks. I get numbness all over body. No one with asthma seems to be able to relate to this. I wonder why. Is it cos mine isn't asthma to start with? I do get the coughs, the running nose, nose blocks and the feeling of not breathing tho i'm gasping for air. Weird huh maybe I've got some psychological problem.

I blamed the first attack on stress. I think it is, cos just before the attack I was feeling dam stressed(just look at the pile of work I have) and helpless. Helpless because everyone around me is so hardworking and i have no idea WHERE to start. And the feeling that I'm not yet prepared for As is a very very very bad one. As is so unlike Os! arghh.

The second I blamed it on cold weather. Seriously, the weather it getting on my nerves. Like today, it's so windy that I couldnt help but keep on sneezing. It's like I caught a flu on my way to sch and it is just so ridiculous! I'm a bio student and I know what's dormant period of flu viruses please. And it doesn't help that it nearly triggered another attack(can't breathe normally due to blocked and running nose).

Oh wells there's another cause for the second attack, but I should keep it to myself. Afterall, there's nothing anyone, including myself, can do about it.

I hate this 'asthma' thing. =(

HOHOHO! I feel happy today! I did so many things i've never done before.
1) I DIDN'T sleep during bio and chem lecture! =D which means i understand wad the lecturer is talking about. whee!
2) I had an early lunch during break and used the lunch period(by then my lessons ended alrdy) to do work(ECONS DRQ!)
3) I continued my mugging in the library all the way until right before econs lecture! *beams*
4) I find the econs lecturer interesting! (for the past lectures he's been a really slooooooow and siaaaans lecturer)
5) I reach home before 6pm and finished dinner before 630pm! BWAHAHA talk about slacking time
6) I decided to go amk central walk walk all alone to experience the night scenes of AMK central. Well I made a list of things i wanna do and so I..
(i) cut my hair(it's terrible cos my hairdresser vented her anger on me! i think it shd be PLUCKING hair instead of cutting hair =/)
(ii) went amk hub and sportlink to look for the blue/white lotto street soccer shoe i always wanted
(iii)DUNHAF MY SIZE IN AMK! i was dam sad k..but then i thought, "hey it's only 9pm! maybe i can still reach J8 world of sports before it closes". yep so i took a train and went there and i bot this nice puma shoes instead! wahahahah talk about fickle minded =D
7) Went to the new arcade in J8 to look at people play mario kart. it's dam high can! i see the girl screaming at her bf reminds me of us three playing nds mario kart =D

Bwahahaha today is a day i'd say i lived! oh and i did other things over the wkend too! other from the mugging and stuffs, i read newpapers and times magazine and guess what? I COOKED DINNER FOR MY FAMILY! hohoho nth beats a meal at home. sometimes when we are outside eating i dun feel this close to them..well i'd say it's certainly worth my time cooking. afterall, i got to bond with all of them =D AND I DIDN'T COOK CAN SOUP AND THOSE NONSENSICAL NOOBY STUFFS OKAY! STOP THAT RUMOUR U STUPID SAME FONT FRIEND! u think ur bf hair longer than me means i'm afraid of him?! (actually i am hahaha)

okay this must be the best wkend(and monday) in my JC life so far. until something else happens, i shall abstain from blogging! (this means i'll still be on MSN so u can stil talk to me =D)

-there's a limit to how much one can do, and how nice one can be. appreciate while it lasts.

"Do you think you are important? To your friends and your loved ones? "
"Of course!"
"Think again."
"...well at least I was, wasn't I?"
"You were. But, are you?"
"...perhaps?"
"So what if you are? Will you still be?"
"...this you'll never know, will you?"
"If they need you, then you will."

Reality check #1:
You feel important because someone needs you.

Reality check #2:
Few truly cares for you. (Note: the converse is true, i.e. you truly care for a few.)

Yes Jiahao is emo-ing again.
Yes I feel unimportant, insecure, powerless.
Acquaintances I have, true friends? A few. Perhaps countable with one hand.

You complained that I'd never understand.
Yes I wouldn't, but could you?

I am but an ordinary human being.
And so I demand for same treatment!
"Do unto others what you want them to", my mum's words.
But here I question her, "Do you always reap what you sow?"
The fact? You don't.

It hurts to see the one you care for unhappy; even more if he/she refused to let you care.

The past few days weren't very enjoyable i guess. I wasn't in a very good mood, and the worst? i dunno why(even i know, i wouldn't be able to express it here due to my powderful england). But look, i'm sry if i caused any unhappiness to anyone reading the blog. i dunno wad i have done under a foul mood and dun blame me k! i wasn't thinking much.

but anyway enrichment week is so enriching can! or rather, i only liked one of the courses i attended: cooking a 3 course western meal. the others? quite crappy. tho i admit i did learn several new things from the math lecture by this NTU professor, like the different ways u can prove a simple math rule. but hey! so what? im not going be a math professor next time and i'm certainly not going spend my precious time thinking about ways to prove a math rule! i'd rather play my nds or, if i have to, mug. speaking of which, econs homework is like SO MUCH! i only did 1 DRQ. be amazed! I DID 1 DRQ! whee!

and while doing PIE that day, i came up with this crappy math notation:
Let A and B represent 2 different world. Given that they are not mutually exclusive, then the intersection of A and B will be you and me.

hahah i rmb i explained to one of my friends(luan i guess), but she dun understand. aiya but it's alright, cos i feel that it's dumb. well anyway my MSN nick now says "When A=B...", can u guess the next part? =)

have an enjoyable week ahead! i shall refrain from touching the comp until sat! *determined*

HAPPY 4/7 DAY!

I'm looking forward to the outing this sat =D

21hrs more to freedom..

Well it ain't exactly freedom lah. Just the end of CT, and the start of enrichment week. oh wells..less than 3months to prelims? hahha HECK! i just updated my nds games i'm going to take a complete break from studying man! enjoy life while it lasts hahahah.

GST just increased to 7% but i see prices falling. The coffeshop near my house is selling a can of yeo's green tea at $1.40, 10cents lower than it's sellign price on 30th june. Pepper lunch in amk hub put up this board today that says "7% GST absorbed! Enjoy ur meal at $13.90.." blah blah. hahah and not forgetting Converse setting up this small section where they are selling shorts and some shirts at $19.90(Up $30+). Whee! For people like me who only buy shirts and shorts when there's discount, it's time to go shop for clothes! (despite the 7% GST)

hahah okay this entry is just some nonsense. To hell with the H3 paper. I aim for nothing more than a Pass!