I hope today is a fruitful practice. The first time me and linus actually meet up to discuss about wad to do for sectionals LOL. Well I want that gold with honours! Lost it to commonwealth 2years ago and i dunwan to lose to any other JC this time RARH! need to step up on sectionals le ar =D ohh and i shall say sth, linus' heart is still with njchoir! just..maybe his default face is abit unconvincing hahaha. Basses basses! =D

and im sry if my direct comments came out too harsh or..well u know. now i've pointed out the mistakes of u guys(as far as i can identify), i hope ur take the initiative to solve them ok? i'm more than willing to help(if i can) and, well if u think about it, if we want to achieve anything as a choir, we must first be good and errorfree individually. 6weeks more. time is running out but we still have some time to improve! it's time to break the barrier and move on to the next platform! =)

JIAYOU NJCHOIR!! =)

This guy is pro! i never knew violin can be played like this! and his version of smooth criminal is simply..awesome! i like =D thanks xiaohui for showing me this clip! Time to sleep goodnight everyone! =)

不开心啦！不知为何就是很不开心。心理作用吧。=(

但愿明天会更好。

《最近》-李聖傑
你最近不說話 怎麼了為什麼？
是不是有什麼事讓你不快樂？
聽說你最近很孤單 有點亂有點慌。
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁。
你想要的我卻不能夠給你我全部，我能給的卻又不是你想要擁有的。
我們不適合 也不想認輸 好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭。
常解釋這樣的一切 都只是開始 我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束。
不想再約束不要再痛哭 下一次會有更好的情路。

im most drawn towards the lyrics of the song. it has a rather catchy tune tho.
but i do not know why i like this song so much.
perhaps 'cos its lyrics is very touching and sad.
perhaps 'cos its sang by one with a very nice voice.
perhaps 'cos its sang out my feelings, my emotions, my..wadeva u call it.

bleahs.

hehe i have decided to delete the previous post cos i think it's poorl written! hahahha. oh wells my dad is stil the greatest =D

hmm tons of critics to do for gp but im not in the mood to do them now..shall do them sometime soon haha. im so bored right now. i haf nth to do and no games to play! rarh! i wan buy psp lah sian..shall negotiate with my mum ltr hahaha.

enjoy the beautiful saturday afternoon! =)

SPEND $5 IN ANY 7-11 STORE AND GET A DORAEMON MAGNET FREE! 35 DESIGNS IN TOTAL, GRAB THEM ALL NOW!

hahah yep i like doraemon! my fav childhood past time is reading doraemon comics and watching doraemon cartoon =D maybe that's y im quite imaginative. so imaginative that in pri sch my teacher commented that my essay is so immaginative that she had to fail me >.< well that's the past..the thing is! I'M COLLECTING THE MAGNETS! so if u guys pass by 7-11 and need to buy things, buy $5 worth and gimme the magnet pls pls pls pls pls! =D

today is a bad BAD day! can't stand it. firstly, the principal(dunno wad's her surname lah) made tmr a half day. my first reaction: YAY! then after i took a look at my timetable. I'm released at 250pm. then i got h3 math from 340 to 430. WOW! means that, after everyone is released at 1140, the poor h3 math and h3 chem people had to stay back until 340 for their lessons. woohoo fun! i'm so going to rot in sch and give off some CO2 gas lah. (if u dun understand wad im saying, rotting = decomposing. try recalling basic biology hahahha =P)

ahh and secondly, MY CHEM AND BIO LECTURES ARE NO LONGER WITH THE MAINSTREAM BUT WITH THE IP4S! ok lah it's not that i dunlike them. but u'd feel super weird if u are me too lor! all IPs except us leh. and i heard that one IP commented that we are 'weird people'. thx ar..but i dunno how reliable it is lah since it comes from yuwei... hahhaha =D

well wad to do? haf to accept it le ba. so irritating lah. first my juniors left, then they are splitted up into different classes, and now these. GREAT.

(oh and i forgot that i still haf 9 opposing view articles to read up and comment on before Ms Phua asks for it. RARH!)

-are u against me? or what?

It's been a long time since i last felt this way. 依依不舍 will most accurately describes my feeling. I dunwan my juniors to leave! AH! how i miss OG8 =(

well see i sort of 'organised' this junior-senior class outing today. WHAT A FAILURE! 5 juniors came, WOW! SO MANY?! hahhaha. but well I'm glad that i get to see SOME. at least some turned up. Actually i plan this thing for them to haf a get together lah. for those who left and those who changed cls. but well..at least i saw my mortal today! and zhiying! but i din get to see the rest that left. i wonder when i'll ever meet them again lah! haii my nice mortal and the enthu CT rep!

aiya but this is only 1 of the not-so-good thing that happened today lor. 2nd thing is a bad news i heard from Shermin. Half of the remaining 07s06 got posted to 07s09. WHAT THE HELL?! nonsense lah means my junior cls is no longer the one i know lah! IRRITATING LEH PLS! when can the sch admin stops irritating me! i dun see wad's wrong with letting them stay as a cls and add a few more ppl in lor. MY DEAR JUNIORS ARE NOW IN S09! AND IT'S NOT SOLARIS HOUSE! RARH!

aiya it's not about solaris or not lah. THEY ARE NO LONGER IN MY JUNIOR CLS! WTH! after the OGLs(me and the rest) did so much to try bond them? well i'd say we did quite a bad job bonding them lah..firstly they are diffcult to bond u know? they had their little cliques. just like my cls last yr, the anderson and the non-anderson. hahaha. hey but i daresay they are QUITE BONDED! right? =)

i dunno y i feel so sad when saying goodbye to them. it's like i'll never see them again. i guess this is the last time seeing those that left nj? u see, my cls didnt haf a cls gathering whr those that left can come back and join us(we did invite them ok). and it'svery difficult to see my 0g8 once again lah! they are all in different cls now =( RARH! never felt this way since end of sec4. i guess i'm more bonded to them then they are bonded to me. bleahs.

I'll miss u guys de! must invite me go for ur next gathering! (if ur ever going to haf one =/)

从前，有个男生很喜欢一个女生。男生喜欢女生的天真，喜欢她的无邪，喜欢她的笑容，喜欢她的声音，喜欢她的淘气，喜欢她的。。。

男生和女生是好朋友。他们的感情很好。两人的关系十分暧昧，但他们的交情停留在那灰色地带。因为男生害怕，害怕被拒绝，也害怕失去一个好友，一个知己。

过了一段日子，男生决定表白。女生了解男生的心意，但没接受他。男生当然很伤心，但他又能如何？只能在一旁等待，默默的喜欢着她。

最难受的是喜欢却不能说出来，有话却不敢开口。男生心里有一万句话想对女生说，但他没说。为什么？男生害羞？尴尬？不。只因为那些不是好朋友能说的话。

男生不能抱有任何期待。有何不满也不能说出来。这样闷下去，男生迟早发疯。或许他的行为因经有些不寻常了吧。

--待续--

我们都是棋盘里的棋子，各自扮演着自己的角色。
不管你多努力的尝试改变，你是无法改变自己的命运的。
卒只能一格一格往前走；
马只能以L型格式移动；
车只能以直线行走；
帅只能待在军营里，永远不能出来。
这是自然的定律，这是世间游戏的规则。
这是上帝的安排。
我们真的能控制自己的命运吗？

heyo! hope everyone's having fun in their march hols. It's almost over =(

i attempted sth different today! i did all the housework! wahahah ok except ironing i plan to iron later at night while watching tv =D well cos my mum's away in taiwan and i shouldnt leave everything to my dad(he is very tired from working whole day), and obviously my sis will not help out. i pity her future husband =P

oh well k so i started with washing the clothes. it's quite simple leh. configure the washing machine, press the start button, add dynamo while it's being filled with water, and then throw in the clothes and mix them around, then leave it to spin! hahhaa so ez! after 20mins take it out and hang them up. whoo i like the weather today it's sunny so my clothes are already dried and they are all on the sofa waiting to be folded! (shall make my sis do that later) =D

yeah then next is sweeping and mopping the floor. my house uses this 纸拖把 or sth (i dunno wad's its real name). it makes sweeping the floor so much easier. but it's a skill to be picked up to effectively pick up all the dirt on the floor with that thingy. hahaha. aiya but since i've been doing the 'sweeping' and mopping all the while so this is NO KICK! =P

ahh k i think this is all i did today. hey it's quite fun u know! hahahah those who know me in sec sch shd know that i aspire to be a househusband hahahha. i dun regret making such aspirations =D

aiya i wanted to post the photo of my nu-er's present here de lah! it's so nice but blogger's not responding to uploading pic from comp so...nvm shall do it next time =D maybe i shd use it as my blog's background haahha.

~锁定目标，ready, GO! 任何事都无法阻绕我！~

我以为我真的知道；我以为一切已经不再重要。
但你的出现将我所布置好的期盘搞砸了。
下一步棋该这么走？请你告诉我。
看来还我还不够老练。看来我还需要时间思考。
上天出的考题果然很难。=(

PSP or Nintendo DS Lite?

I can't decide! I want buy lahh!! hahahha. It all started due to the lack of entertainment in my house. bleahs. all i got on my comp is o2jam. maplestory is a thing of the past pls! and there's no other interesting online game i can play(partially due to the lack of time). so i've decided to buy a handheld control so i can play almost anytime i wan! especially since travelling to school and home is quite a journey. woohoo!!

SO how how?! i read their reviews, it seems that they are good in their own ways leh. but i wan the positive aspects of BOTH of them! RARH!

PSP is so big. ds not very small but smaller relative to psp. hmm..
PSP got nicer graphics! ds oso not bad but then so gameboy-ish.
DS is interactive! especially the touchscreen. but psp can do so much more, like mp3.

bleahs so many other things to compare..HOW!
(actually i think i may end up not buying any cos of a certain parental objection BLEAHS)

For the past year, I'm sorry if my words or actions have ever hurt anyone of you in anyway. Because I always speak/act before I think, I asked for forgiveness for being insensitive at times. Well at least for this year and more years to come, I'm not going to repeat that. I'm going to THINK! =)

I spent the whole of ytd thinking. Thinking about my life. I've always been doing wad my parents planned for me, following their plans accordingly. Not long ago, my dad told me that it's time i think of my future cos they cant always make decisions for me. After i complete jc, then it'll be my decisions that determine my future. RARH! i feel so pressurised to make the right decision. oh wells i stil haf got 1yr of jc2 and 2yrs of army to think about it =D

Now I'm 18, I'm entering the next phase of my life. woohoo! so exciting =/

probably anyone who know me well who haf agreed that i always keep things to myself. yes, i realised that i've never shown my true emotions to people around me before, not even my parents. i find it hard to show it to others, and furthermore, wad if they are affected by it? i dunno wad i'm thinking too. it's not a good feeling to keep things bottled up inside, but i dunno who to tell, and how to tell. rarh. probably wad i really want is to find someone who can see thru me and know wad's going on inside without me telling. =)

Yes! BCME ALL OVER! wahahah. here's a recount lol.

Monday: Chem + Econs
Chem was ok lah not very difficult, but not easy either! hahah well i heard many said that as long as u studied, u will know how to do. Econs is...terrible >.< omg i got so much thing i wanna write and i cant! ended up spending only 30min in qn4(of which 20min goes to 4a).

Tuesday: Math
My first ever math test that i'm worried about cos my worst topics are tested and my best aint. i cant do vectors and graph-related qns! but at least the vector qns are easier than wad i expect =X i expected like 3 planes here and there asking u find this and that. hahah left a qn blank tho cos dunno how to integrate parameters. hahahah. so dumb it's in the notes and nobody took the effort to memorise it cos it says SELF STUDY.

Wednesday, which is today: BIO!
Woohoo! the first time i see 4marks structured qn with 10lines blank for u to write ur answer! and not only 1 of such qn, there are..about 10? every structure 2. i feel that i write more in structured than in essay pls! oh and cos i'm so dumb i took so long to recall my facts for structured and qn1 of essay, i only had 30mins left for my second essay. Goodbye to my 20marks haha. k lah i wun lose all 20. probably 10? hahah. it's wasnt a difficult paper, unless u didn't study/haf bad memory skills/u haf 老年痴呆症.

I always marvel at how things occur INSIDE us when i study for bio tests. Everything seems to happen by chance, every reactants seem to be so important, every reactions seem to be so crucial, and my very existence seem to be so..i can't find a word to describe. perhaps planned? yeah i think so. the molecules have got no brains! how would they know when to go at which time and what molecules to combine with and what bonds to break and..and we all know that reactions happened by 2 molecules colliding with the right ENERGY and ORIENTATION. what's the probability of RNA polymerase colliding with the right part of ur genome and unwinds the DNA double helix and the dNTPS colliding with right force and orientation at ur reaction side for transcription? not considering that other proteins like transcription factors and enhacers and DNA bending protein and ... are required for transcription too! Does it all happened by chance? Or is it all planned?

It's almost over!! 2 more papers to go: SPA skill A and H3 Math.
Grant me the strength to pull through! I have yet started on either one. Rarh.

yoyoyo! another day spent mugging. AHH so no-life lah! buey tahan *sighs* It's chemistry day! doing the tys is so fun. come on man set more challenging qn the qns all NO KICK! hahaha i shall sound confident and keep my morale high! =D (it's not really no kick lah hahah)

ok topic for today is...FAMILIARITY!
hahah i dunno if there's such word. i anyhow crapped up this "familiarity" thingy so..hahah. ok before i start my very short "speech", i shall tel u wad isit about. I believe that all humanbeings are kids! yeah we are all immature, childish...most imptly, we act like kids(but they are all unconsciously done)! ok here are a few examples.

1) Guys act childishly in front of the girls they like.
2) Everyone likes the feeling of being hugged.
3) I'm sure u cuddle up when u are aslp.
4) U like the smell of ur girlfriend's(or boyfriend's) hair

ok maybe u haven seen the link yet. so i shal relate it to the actions of babies!

1) Babies 撒娇/ throw tantrums to their parents.
2) Babies like to be hugged.
3) Babies cuddle up and suck their thumb when slping.
4) Babies recognise people by their smell. (i read this from a research report hah!)

yeah so see the similiarities of our actions to that of a baby? if u think about it, it's really true. just look at how ur guy friends behaves infront of their girlfriends. look at how girls always gif each other hugs(for no reason at all). try filming urself when u are aslp! hahhaa.

ok so i read this month's Seventeen. (i didn't buy it. my sis bot it and i read it cos it's lying on the dinning table.) one of the qns asked by a girl is why guys act childishly infront of girls they like. and the response from this guy is that it is a form of self defence for guys. BULLSHIT! hahahah k that's from me only, cos it's not true for me!
My hypothesis: Guys do so to gain attention of the girls they like! we all yearn for attention.
this is more convincing right? cos it is true for me. hee =D

ok relate it back to my topic of the day. guy act childishly is the same as girl sajiao-ing which is the same as babies throwing tantrums! yeah we all yearn for attention. hug is a form of attention(to me). at least when u are hugged, u noe the hugger (the one who hugs u) cares for u.

I'm sure u are wondering y i type all this rubbish! One, I just studied chem the whole day and i'm relaxing by blabbering nonsense. Two, I just did a gp compre paper on the Attention Economy. yeah and so i support the writer's view that "attention will be the currency of the next economy , not money or "products.

当你同时对两个人抱有好感，不诚。
当你同时爱上两个人，不忠。
当你抱着一个人心里却想着另一个他，劈腿。
当躺在你身旁的人不是你的伴侣，出轨。
人类真是无聊。一脚踏两船就是不仁不义不贞不忠的行为，何必用这么多不同的形容词？

The rain keeps coming down as if it's free of charge. RARH. I hate this kinda weather! but then again, i like playing in the rain =D it just feel so shuang when u take a stroll and let the rain splash on ur face. whee! but u'll get sick. bleahs. i rmb someone once said that she likes to walk in the rain cos the rain will hide her tears. well to that someone, i hope u dun think that way anymore! cos if u wanna cry, i dun mind lending u my shoulder =) i guess u'll feel awkward huh? bleahs.

anyway, went back to nj today to study. cos the day before i asked xh, roy and mav to go lunch tgt! wanted to gif them some support and good luck hahah. and walked back nj via maingate thx to mav! i'm sure u noe how thick the nj uniform is right? hahha =P but for once, i 'm grateful for the thick uniform. it keeps me warm!

when the vice principal is giving the speech, i'm in choir store. all i hear is cheering and clapping form the J3 cohort. they seem to be very pleased! so i went to the hall and i was told that our J3 did so well that it's actually the best in 10yrs! WOW! congrats J3s =D k so curious me decided to walk around hall to experience the atmosphere. it's so...quiet. very quiet at first. then as many more get their results, it gets noisier. and it ended up as a fish market. hahaha. but i saw and experienced many things today. for example, i experienced the tensed atmosphere that i din 2yrs ago(when collecting O lvl results). and i saw forced smiles on so many people's faces. y hide ur emotions! if u're sad, show it! at least if u show it, then others wun ask u abt ur results, which might make u even sadder. but oh wells, it's over and.i hope everyone is satisfied with their results =)

it's getting late and my brain is saturated with stupid thoughts. ah and of cos bio! transcription factors, distal control elements, 5C methylation, poly(A) tails, 5' capping, et cetera.

I wondered if getting 4As for promos was really worth it. For one, i know that my hardwork paid off. On the other hand, I'm pressured to maintain my grades, and it isn't as easy as adding 1 with 1. CT1 is about new topics, of which i missed so many lectures. Part of me is telling myself that i can do it, the other part is afraid of failure. I'm not putting my 100% effort into studying right now, but I'll stil be very affected if I get bad results! Maybe 4As isn't that great after all..I hate being pressurised.

Failure is not an option. I've got no choice; I simply can't fail. I dunwan to disapt my parents. I CAN DO IT! (i hope)

hello! i've decided to get a new skin and i think this skin is nice! it's quite similar to one of luan's old skin hee =D

am supposed to be studying now, but HECK. i need a break too! didn't do much today, was spent slacking and chatting online with yanghan =D so long nv talk to him liao and i actually miss hearing his stupid jokes, and that loud voice of him! hahah those who think that i speak loudly, u haven met yanghan!

tmr is A lvl results day! good luck to all my seniors may u all get the result u desire! well i think the most important thing is that u haf defeated urself! as long as u put in 100% effort into this exam, then i guess wadeva results u get doesnt matter. and mama always says 比上不足，比下有余。=)

and then next tues is O lvl JC posting day! hee i just hope all J1s get into wadeva JC they wan to be in. If u wan to be HCI(yuntian ar!), by all means go over! but of cos i hope all J1s can stay in NJC lah alrdy know so many of ur le if u all gone i hafta make the effort to know the new ones. very tiring leh, i'm old u noe! >.< ahh and my neighbour i really hope u can stay in NJC! if not no one go sch with me it'll be back to my boring journey every morning. sry i stil dunno ur name tho u're my neighbour for so long liaoz hahahha =D

of the least importance will be the JC2s CT! hahah heck lah! but u guys heck better, so i can do better =P ok i'm just joking! once again, my mama says must take every tests seriously, no matter how minor it is. so dun say i slack anymore liao(AHEM S06) cos i'm not a slacker =D i may appear to be one, but i mug when it's near tests wahahaha. i'm declaring that i'm a mugger! and i'm proud to be one LOL. (actually i think people who study only near exams are not considered muggers cos anyone with common sense will do so..but oh wells i'm a mugger! xD)

okay i'm ending all this rubbish here. this is such an uninteresting post. hahah. anyway the previous post was by me for me! hahah funny right, but i guess it's a nice way to motivate myself. thanks rhoda =D

a couple of songs to recommend:
1) 专署天使 - TANK
2) 非你莫属 - TANK
3) 家的名字 - 吴克群
4) 为爱而生 - 五月天
5) 我又初恋了 - 五月天
6) 两只恋人 - 曹格