i should make an effort to update.

about work..well there isn't anything interesting. most of the thing i wun be able to post it here anyway. but ya, life is boring now. cos nothing to do. hope things pick up momentum soon. i'd rather be busy than slacking i think. ya i will.

i've finally decided that i'll get myself a new wallet! and i got it. of cos, not those expensive ones lah. i love cheap and brandless stuff HAHA. if it's an imitation then not so good lah BUT i still like them cos they are cheap! =D yea. so i got myself one. i hope my mum is right about changing wallet to keep my money in. i need to save to recover from the deficit i incurred >.<

and wells..nothing especially worth blogging about. except perhaps this quote i came across today.

"Love me not for who i am, but for who i aren't."

and to you, thanks(:

Happy new year to all! Even though i'm 5days late(:

i didnt end and start my new year very nicely, less said about those whom i have affected as well. I do think i was at fault, but the truth is that it was never my intention to hurt. Really. Just, well, i wasnt careful with my thought processes and choices of language i suppose.

in any case, i wasnt at all thrilled about my new posting too. Coy2IC does sound like a powerful and demanding role. And it is, just that i am absolved of many duties and responsibilities and of cos, of decisions i have to make. Maybe because im new and my oc doesnt want to 'bully' me with the new stuff? But it is so different from what i expected and i just don't know how to make myself useful. Other than accepting requests by my sergeants to be the MC for CNY celebration, performing a song, turn up for fmn dnd, etc.

as much as i hate saying this, but the new year has taught me that i am not as good as i think i am. Meaning to say, i've seen so much flaws in myself. So many things i hate about myself, but it's just so weird to say 'i hate myself' when i should be loving myself, right? 'who doesn't have flaws?' is a comforting thought, but who doesn't want to be flawless?

and therefore, besides those tangible and physical achievements, i have 2resolutions for the year 2009. 1) to be a better friend and, 2) to be a better commander.

oh, and i think only few can judge if i have fulfilled 1), but none can judge if i have fulfilled 2). I do hope my drivers and storemen will like me and listen to me! Hah.