merry xmas? i think i need to edit my previous post. rarh. u know how i'm feeling right now? i feel hatred! i hate you, you, you and YOU! EVERYONE OF YOU! =( i hate couples on the streets. i hate lovers in the park. i hate candlelight diners in restuarants. i hate xmas! so much for the season of giving. yes, i'm giving. and that's all i do right? i give everyone my time, my attention, my care, my love..when am i going to receive any? [shuddup if u are trying to say "hey but i cared for you!" bcos let me have my way for once =(] wanna know 3 things that spoilt my xmas? here i'll name it for you.
ONE. you spoilt it when our r/s failed. i let go of u and make u fall hard? ever considered the pain i went through before i let go? ever wonder the loneliness i felt? what about the pain i endured when i hold on to the r/s and u dun seem to care about me a bit? so many things occured, so many things that hurt. there's no point in saying them anyway cos u wun understand, and what difference does it make? it's over. it has ended. full stop.
TWO. of all people, why must you spoil my closest friend's xmas? u may not know im referring to u, but let me tell u this, u are such a bastard. it's so hard to believe anyone like u can survive on earth for 18years and still surviving pretty well. everything's a joke to u? u just make me so disappointed in friendships, especially the one with u. perhaps u are laughing at me right now and saying bad things about me when im typing this post. something like "jiahao that bastard is such a weakling everyday emo over nothing". seriously, someone needs to wack some sense into you. before u ruin ur own life in the future. the moment u spoilt her xmas, u spoilt my xmas too. bastard.
THREE. actually i dunno what to rank as the 3rd thing that spoilt my xmas. everything just come together and spoil my white xmas. well so i think im not going to type anything here lah.
so yeah, my xmas is a total flop. i think im on santa's blacklist. wonder what i've done. maybe cos my house no chimney. bleahs.
ohh ya and i wanted to say things to my 2 nice and close friends who got tgt on xmas(or eve?)! =D hellohello. i hope one of u is reading this. i didnt mean to say those stuff and pour cold water on ur and walked out of macs just now. =( i was truly happy for ur. well, early in the morning i was alrdy planning ways to react(to show that im happy) when ur eventually break the news to me. ahh. guess i was too affected by all that happened. when i cooled down, h2h talk with me again k? =) once again, congrats!
people say the 18th year of ur life is the most unforgettable one. so true. i've seen and been through so much that i'm nvr the same old jiahao i was a year ago. maybe entering NJC was the wisest choice of my life. =)
ONE. you spoilt it when our r/s failed. i let go of u and make u fall hard? ever considered the pain i went through before i let go? ever wonder the loneliness i felt? what about the pain i endured when i hold on to the r/s and u dun seem to care about me a bit? so many things occured, so many things that hurt. there's no point in saying them anyway cos u wun understand, and what difference does it make? it's over. it has ended. full stop.
TWO. of all people, why must you spoil my closest friend's xmas? u may not know im referring to u, but let me tell u this, u are such a bastard. it's so hard to believe anyone like u can survive on earth for 18years and still surviving pretty well. everything's a joke to u? u just make me so disappointed in friendships, especially the one with u. perhaps u are laughing at me right now and saying bad things about me when im typing this post. something like "jiahao that bastard is such a weakling everyday emo over nothing". seriously, someone needs to wack some sense into you. before u ruin ur own life in the future. the moment u spoilt her xmas, u spoilt my xmas too. bastard.
THREE. actually i dunno what to rank as the 3rd thing that spoilt my xmas. everything just come together and spoil my white xmas. well so i think im not going to type anything here lah.
so yeah, my xmas is a total flop. i think im on santa's blacklist. wonder what i've done. maybe cos my house no chimney. bleahs.
ohh ya and i wanted to say things to my 2 nice and close friends who got tgt on xmas(or eve?)! =D hellohello. i hope one of u is reading this. i didnt mean to say those stuff and pour cold water on ur and walked out of macs just now. =( i was truly happy for ur. well, early in the morning i was alrdy planning ways to react(to show that im happy) when ur eventually break the news to me. ahh. guess i was too affected by all that happened. when i cooled down, h2h talk with me again k? =) once again, congrats!
people say the 18th year of ur life is the most unforgettable one. so true. i've seen and been through so much that i'm nvr the same old jiahao i was a year ago. maybe entering NJC was the wisest choice of my life. =)