Life's a bitch.

yeah, life in logistics as a cadet is. i shall not elaborate. it's quite self-explanatory actually.

went for s06 gathering today. quite nice to meet up after such a while! even though not a lot went, but some cant be helped lah. like vic is still in brunei and jason just went taiwan. nevertheless, it's nice catching up with the girls and the other guys. i miss s06! actually, i miss studying in JC. at least it's more structured and i can sleep and do my own studying afterwards.

and my for my first 3mths junior cls! or, my OG lah. we were OG8 right? yeah. good luck for As! and this extends to anyone reading my blog now who is also an Alvl candidate =) i miss those days when im the OGL. i still cant understand why i dare to stand up there and lead the mass dance when i dance so lousily. but still, i miss u guys lah. though only 3mths, but it's something more than just 3mths of friendship. my first OG, kinda like my first love hahah. hard to forget ur first, no? =D

alright. and now, i miss my goodfriend. so hard to meet up lah! okay lah was my fault actually but nvm, will meet up before i go ROC yeah? and i promised u steamboat. we'll have it when we meet up =)

am happily tired today. but still, life's a bitch. my stand still holds.

GDNIGHT!(:

《约定》

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定

-光良

heard this song on my buddy's mp3. very nice, very meaningful. to me. yep, it's a promise from me to you. and i still remember our pact. =)

so tired of everything that happened for the past few years. seen and experienced much, and, just as u said, maybe i've already missed the one. well, 2years more. i'll wait.

what a boring saturday. okay, which saturday isn't boring for me? seems like im always complaining about my weekends hor. what to do? i just like to complain.

booked out this morning at 10am. wasn't unhappy about sat bookout cos somehow, i rather book out today morning than yesterday 11pm. and, at least i trained! even though very tired, but kinda worth it. hasnt been exercising much, and i want that ippt gold. no gold no pride sian. i think i'll commission without pride. =/

how boring can bookouts be if u have to do assignments, write essays, go through courseware so u'll pass ur upcoming exams, write reflections, plan and settle activity that u are supposed to be organising WITH someone else? again, not that im complaining, but he seems so enthu yet all he does is kaobei and criticise me and my idea.

went for bh's baptism today. quite interesting, but i was so tired from the training that i can't stop myself from dozing off when the pastor is preaching >.< but what she said made some sense. for me, since i dun totally believe in god, i think the idea that someone up is watching over me did help me through the tough times. oh anyway, bh baptised while on clutches lah! can tell how weird he must have felt standing there with clutches. and he made a wonderful speech LOL. didnt know his chinese so power. power but still only get B3! hahahah xD

after the baptism ended i didnt want to go home. no one to go out with either. so i went bugis to shop around by myself. wanted to buy myself some clothes, spend some money for retail therapy's sake. but when i see sth i like, i just dun feel like trying it on. lazed here and there, in the end decided to go home slack, empty handed.

well i think dinner with mum was the only event that made my saturday a saturday lah. can talk to her more freely now. she totally treat me like an adult and all, though im stil her boyboy lah. talked about r/s problems, about other people's r/s problems and how she'd handle them. then i realised, my mum and i are the same, but she's so much stronger than i was! no wonder my dad love her so. needless to say, i love my mum too.

sitting in front of the tv, watching olympics women table tennis SF while eating my ben&jerry's chunky banana and typing this entry is total CHILLNESS man..seriously, i never pictured myself doing this before. think i'm really at edge of death from boredom, and of loneliness. can't blame anyone. i think it's just me, thinking too much, like always.

the match is exciting, and i think singapore is going to win. 48yrs without a medal, and we are so going to break some record this time round in beijing! =D alright time to go do my homework alrdy. i have this love-hate r/s with army. boo.

living in my own world with me, myself and i. how i wish for some disturbance. bahhhhhh.

my hp is failing me. my browser keeps hanging. i wonder why. wanted to blog so many times this week, yet im unable to. like just now, when i was sitting by the sea, on the beach, emo-ing and watching the waves splash onto the shore.

today's been long. well, i dun recall sleeping much. cos i didnt. airport is freaking cold. once again, the terrain sleeper(gerald tay) proved that he IS worthy of the title. hope those infantry people can do a good job there in brunei! i can see them wearing the JCC badges alrdy. jiayou delta! oh, and wing comd is still that inspiring. though he didnt say much, but he rmb me! so glad =D

today was really poorly planned. i went from north to east to north and back to east. travel so much. really shouldve just stayed home and not gone for the choir thing at ecp. i know i didnt want to cycle. int he end, i think i go there to emo and train up for route marches. walked so far. seen so many stuff. and ecp is so crowded today! wonder if it's because it's national day, or are all saturdays so crowded? really want to go back one day to run. it's a pretty nice place to run.

and i guess, part of my moodiness is because what i predicted seems to be coming true. i hope im not jealous or what. i'd prefer to think that im afraid. afraid of her falling in and i unable to help. afraid of losing my friend. like, my only friend. lol. okay lah my only friend, u can guess my prediction le right? pls tell me ur mind is indeed stronger.

laptop's running low on batt, and i dunwan to blog anymore. been up for the past 48hours le think my body's crying out for me to lie down and sleep. gdnight.

how i wish this is all a dream, and i will wake up and nothing's changed. but, i know it's real. i've changed. so have you, you and many other you-s. oh wells..people change and i no longer feel that i know myself anymore. even people i hold dear. life sucks. yeah.

Official SOC test result is out! My official timing is 09:04min! Only 3secs slower than my buddy but it's faster than i thought i've done! Good job to me yay! Im really happy wheeeee. The best part is- people who passed SOC get to book out TONIGHT! That'll be my 3rd friday bookout in a row! YAY! Hahhah =D today is a GREAT day!

today is official opening of my camp too. Think the stars are coming down later, together with lots of crabs. Oh mans, and they'll be passing by(and maybe entering) my syndicate room! Outstanding. If they come in... =X

just a little update: MO extented my status and declared me unfit for AHM! Kinda sad, cos i always wanted to try running long dist. Why are my shins so weak? Sian. Hope i can recover soon. My setion wants to go run marathon at end of yr and i want join them! Booo.

slacking in bunk while others are training for AHM is annoying. Im growing fatter and shorted and my muscles are disappearing! =(

i sound like a bimbo. Oh wells.